This week’s quote comes from John Green, a man who perhaps is most well-known for his recent New York Times Bestseller, ‘The Fault In Our Stars’ – a book that I loved, by the way…
John Green is an author who first came to public awareness in 2005 through his first novel, ‘Looking for Alaska’, and furthered his reputation with his YouTube video project, ‘Brotherhood 2.0’, but it is Green’s most recent novel that has allowed him to achieve widespread recognition.
While deciding which quote I would use for this week’s ‘Friday’ edition, the thought struck me of how true these words are for me. I am one of those writers who simply has to work alone and in silence. I cannot abide any distractions when I am in the ‘zone’. If I hear even the slightest of sounds, I find my concentration waning considerably.
Some people (who let’s face it, are probably not writers themselves) think the fact that I take myself away to somewhere quiet and peaceful is quite an antisocial thing to do. Some members of my family cannot understand why I would rather sit at home and write rather than go out and socialize.
The simple answer to that question would be that I’m not really much of a social person in the first place. I’m the kind of person who is painfully shy, the type of person that hates being the centre of attention or having the eyes of the room on them. I am not confident when it comes to my appearance or when it comes to articulating how I feel to another person.
For all my inherent shyness when in the company of others, I feel that creative writing is where I come alive. When I sit in front of my computer, I do not find myself weighed down by the burden of misgivings when it comes to my image. No one can see me behind a computer screen and therefore I feel less as if I am being judged on sight alone.
Creating a story allows me to free myself from my daily worries and concerns, it allows me the room to breathe and flourish in a world of my own making, to be the master of my own destiny. When I write, I am the person that I want to be, the person that I want the rest of the world to see.
I have so many stories to tell, more than I could ever possibly write in one lifetime, yet I know that I would not be able to stand up and speak them to the world. I would find myself crippled by doubt and anxiety – to the point that I would most likely fold in on myself and dissolve into a pool of my own tears.
I am an introvert, it would be impossible to deny it to myself or to my readers. But I am also a writer and therefore a story-teller – just one with an inability to look you in the eye while doing so. Yet the beauty of writing is the fact that I don’t need to look you in the eye to tell you my story. It is through reading that you are brought closer to the author; instead of looking into their eyes as the story unfolds you are seeing it through their eyes. What better way to enjoy a story than that?